My life is like a movie...

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye." -Miss Piggy

Hahaha one of the best quotes. Love it!

I've been a constant state of annoyance this week and I don't even know why. Well, actually, that's a lie. I know why. My life is amusing, to say the least. Honestly, I didn't know it was possible for a real life to be SO much like a movie. But I'm telling you, if you've seen "The Holiday," Iris' character pretty much lives my life. It's bizarre. The monologue in the beginning—genius script writing. Reading it may give you a little insight into my life...minus the tears and valium part. I don't cry about this stuff. And I most definitely do not take drugs. Oh, and I don't drink my problems away either, fyi.

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

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3 Responses to “ My life is like a movie... ”

Jessica Anne :]<3 said...

Love that movie! I could totally hear her voice as I was reading it! But really? you feel like that?

Liz! said...

yes! i DO feel like that! sad, huh?

Yvonne said...

1. You are NOT as bad as her!
2. Brian said life is like a movie at retreat "what genre are you gonna be?"
3. Oh and add an fyi
I don't..."sleep" them away either...oh yea that the other girl. lol!
ok then how about... "I don't fall for the next guy I see" oh wait that doesn't work either cuz in some cases you do. Well darn!

lol! Love ya roomie!

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