I'm really bad at waiting. I start out fine, but then the next day (ha!) I start trying to take matters into my own hands.

Waiting on the Lord is especially hard for me—waiting, knowing, and trusting that God is going to take care of the minor details in life. This happens to me all the time! God has been doing something crazy in my life regarding work. I'll spare you blog readers the details (you can ask me about it in person if you're really dying to know), but basically I've received the opportunity to do some freelance work for someone that I've known for several years. Not only is this an ideal person to work for, but regular freelance—if that makes any sense—would be an ideal work situation for me.

I've shared with quite a few people about how I am really loving being a housewife. Yet somehow, I feel obligated to justify it to everyone who asks about it. I fear the thought of people thinking I am lazy and unmotivated. Most women I know who are home have children, and since I don't yet have any children, I don't want people to think that I sit around and do nothing all day at home. I feel obligated to justify myself for my husband's sake as well as my own sake. My husband is such a hard worker and I am so blessed that he is happy with me being at home. But it still irks me a little when people ask me, "So what do you do all day?"

But anyways, back to the freelance story.

I did step one of a project for this guy and hadn't heard back in a while. So rather than waiting on the Lord, trusting that He always provides, I began to job hunt. I began to come up with reasons why I needed a job, reasons that are more like excuses when you look at God's big picture. None of the jobs I found seemed all that exciting. Nothing ever measures up to God's best. 

A few days later, I received an email from the freelance guy. A few days later! God always does that to me! He gives me no reason to lack trust, but then I get impatient anyway and He tells me, "Liz, why don't you trust me? Just wait. I am always there. I know what's best for you."